Jtune: Down, down, down

It has been more than 2 weeks since I last updated, sigh. The past 2 weeks or so had been so bad, I wasn't really in the mood to get down to typing all those minor details.

SO much had been happening, and honestly, I feel down right rotten right now after having to go through all these shit. So where do I start? How about... after the last post I made.

Okay, so after someone came to bomb those outright ridiculous questions at me, most of my other teachers requested to meet my parents too. Yup, so after endless "My parents aren't coming for Parents-Teachers-Meeting because they are busy", they still didn't give up even 3 days before the PTM itself. Finally, my Personal Mentor asked for my mum's number on last Wednesday (the 10th) and called my parents on the 11th.

Got a scolding from my mum when I reached home for all sorts of things I have failed to do as a student blah blah blah and well, she said what I dreaded most.

"Quit climbing" 

It's just a casual remark which flashes by your mind when you hear something so mind bobbling!! I swear I'm not having any suicidal thoughts HAHA

Okay okay, back to the exciting story. So my mum went on and on about everything and she officially banned me from climbing. Told Miss Gao that I had to pull out from NSSCC the next day and yeah, she called me on Saturday to talk to me.

That day wasn't exactly the best day to talk over the phone because I was having Land Expedition during Elects Camp, but well, what has to be done got to be done. So while walking with my funny little kids from Group 7 on the streets of Dhoby Ghaut, I spoke on the phone with Miss Gao to inform her of the whole story.

The conversation went on and of course, I broke into tears in no less than 3minutes into the call. It really really really sucked to hear that my only choices then were: (1) Leave the team (2) Miss Gao call my mum up to convince her to allow me to stay in the team, with conditions.

I ultimately had to choose the first choice at that point in time because the second choice was obviously out since my parents hate teachers calling them up. (Which explains why my mum was pissed to the extent of telling me to quit climbing) Miss Gao then told me to use the weekend to consider and we hung up.

Sigh. Had no idea what got over me then but yeah, my dumbo tears kept flowing. I was just wondering really hard as to why my mum's out to kill that little bit of passion I've ever had for a sport in this whole life time. Shall go into more of that in my next post. :/

Even after the whole Land Ex, I was still being emotional and stuff and cried a hell lot again. This time in front of the elects, which made things so awkward. Wow, they certainly went like "Jenny's a crybaby", ugh so embarrassed to even think about it right now!!

Yup, so on the very next Monday (15th), I met up with Miss Gao to discuss. Damn glad Xin Min was there to make things so much less tense (: So the discussions led us to the final decision of me only allowed to attend Friday trainings, which were my mum's wishes. (Yes, I managed to convince my mum to not force me to quit climbing!!!!)

So now, it's Friday the 19th and I haven't been to a single training since the 10th or maybe earlier. Somehow my heart feels empty right now ):